What do you think about more than anything else?

I was about to unsub from questions and reflections, yet I like this question best. so far.  What I think about, is how to embrace with as much compassion as I can muster the energies and events that arise in and around me. With Hope. With thanksgiving when possible and at the very least with awareness.

Having seen my own circus go around now for a number of decades, it's a challenge to continue to greet it (my character, my genetics, my behavior, whatever beliefs seem vital at that moment) with compassion. If I had to pose one current conceptual challenge, it would be, how to live a clear, decisive life without placing actual human beings (myself included) in the conceptually violent prizon of judgement.

To forgive everyone ahead of time. To be an embodiment of an open space- A welcoming presence thst serves the unfolding of all who encounter me- for a moment or a lifetime. At the same time, To live with discimination, to take moral stances with clarity, To nurture the beast within with the same kind of comapssion, guidance, and care I would hope to give a spirited and beatiful horse if I was in charge of one, Celebrate the beast. Guide my own beast, and enjoy the beauty of the beasts around me.

I do all these things on a good day, and I attempt to compassionately get myself back on track when I find myself ruled by some impulse out of the shadow, when I find myself face to face with some persistant, occasionally traggic blindspot... The shadow is my teacher. And I am driven by a joyous kindness that dances among these thoughts and polarities and wields a sword and finds a path. This is the faith, the hope, and the love with which I resolve to greet all that this life offers. Embodying it more and more deeply is my challenge.